Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 27

 

Solitude. In today’s world the people do not know the meaning of this word. That is for certain. We have fast food, fast cars, television, YouTube and various other social media platforms that keep us up twenty hours, seven days a week. This causes us to lose the ability to have solitude in body and soul. We have entered the last trials. The five final rungs, and have passed the rung of discernment and entered the rung of solitude. This does not require just physical solitude, but also a spiritual. We must quiet the passions in order to live a virtuous life. St. John of the Ladder writes, “The beginning of solitude is to throw off all noise as disturbing for the depth (of the soul). And the end of it is not to fear disturbances and to remain insusceptible to them. Though going out, yet without a word, he is kind and wholly a house of love. He is not easily moved to speech, nor is he moved to anger. The opposite of this is obvious.”

As we approach Holy Week, we are recalled to the final week of Jesus’ earthly ministry and his glorious resurrection on Pascha. Now is the time to recall our commitment to God and to focus on solitude. The Church offers services every day of the week during Holy Week so that we can participate in the solitude of the Church. In doing so, even if just for a moment we are able to throw off the yoke of this world and to remain completely silent as we are transported to Jerusalem and the moments that are the greatest of importance within our faith. Christ provides us with the clearest example of solitude within the soul during this time. Being completely human and completely divine, Christ taught us how to not fear the disturbances of our souls and the world around us as we progress our journey towards salvation. The clearest example I can think of during this time, is that of the Garden. In the Garden, Christ was distressed by the coming trials and his crucifixion and sweated blood. But his constant prayer was that whatever the will of God is he would do it. He would fulfill his purpose and the purpose of God. So too when we obtain solitude of our souls we are able to discern the will of God and proceed despite the consequences that will befall us. We live our lives according to the will of God, not man. When we become distracted by the thoughts of this world, we leave the divine grace of God and he will not dwell within us. It is at this point one should repent and strive to continue living in solitude. When he does St John says, “The celestial powers unite in worship with him whose soul is quiet, and dwell lovingly with him. And the opposite to this is obvious.”  That means the angels and the saints and the Holy Spirit of God will worship within us the Triune God. We become the vessels of divine grace and are able to pour out this grace in the world by shining our light for Christ. Not all of us will be granted visions like the saints, but we can rest assured that by allowing solitude within our souls that the angels and all other celestial powers of heaven are surrounding us.

St. John also says, “He who has attained to solitude has penetrated to the very depth of the mysteries, but he would never have descended into the deep unless he had first seen and heard the noise of the waves and the evil spirits, and perhaps even been splashed by these waves. The great Apostle Paul confirms what we have said. If he had not been caught up into Paradise, as into solitude, he could never have heard the unspeakable words.1 The ear of the solitary will receive from God amazing words. That is why in the book of Job that all-wise man said: ‘Will not my ear receive amazing things from Him?” The noise around us is great today, whether it be physical or spiritual. I mentioned all the forms of social media that keep us constantly seeking noise, but so too do the demons have their own form of social media that they try to manipulate the people with. They give us the noise to drown out the voice of God. The voice of God is constantly calling us back to the fold, like the shepherd in search of his lost sheep. The voice of the demons is shouting as loud as it can trying to muffle out God and lead us away from the calming of the storm. In quieting our minds and souls we are able to hear clearly. Thus we become like St. Paul who was brought up into the heavens and heard the words of God Himself.  It is the calling of all Christians, not just monks and clergy to hear the voice of God. We are called to worship at his footstool and to proclaim the gospel of Jesus Christ. But without the voice of the demons we cannot discern the voice of God. God’s voice nourishes us, it calms us, it brings peace and hope to the soul. The voice of the demons brings torment and destruction. By using the rung of discernment we are able to clear the path for God.

Finally the most important part of solitude is faith. Without faith, we can achieve nothing. It is not a once in a lifetime prayer or something that magically appears when we accept Christ. That must come in time. We must grow as all things do. We do not magically receive salvation the moment we pray a prayer or walk an aisle. For faith is something that is entirely based on the daily life of the person. One moment you can have all the faith in the world, and the next because of unseen circumstance, you lose it. That is why we must keep treading along the straight and narrow path of salvation brothers and sisters. St. John writes, “Faith is the wing of prayer; without it, my prayer will return again to my bosom. Faith is the unshaken firmness of the soul, unmoved by any adversity. A believer is not one who thinks that God can do everything, but one who believes that he will obtain all things. Faith paves the way for what seems impossible; and the thief proved this for himself. The mother of faith is hardship and an honest heart; the latter makes faith constant, and the former builds it up. Faith is the mother of the solitary; for if he does not believe, how can he practise solitude?”  As I have said many times, there will be trials and tribulations. But with faith, we overcome these obstacles because we know that all things allowed by God for our salvation. Without hardship we see that there is no need for God. We believe that we are not in need of salvation because God has provided all things to us in this life. However, these things will pass away, they will perish when the world is renewed. God will not ask of us how much money or fame we had on earth, rather how much faith we had. Will we say that we had little, and be given little in return? We will we say we had much faith and be given much in return? Or heaven forbid, that we say we had no faith and be cast into the fires of Gehenna? The choice is clear that with solitude comes faith, and with faith comes solitude. We therefore should strive to at the judgement day boldly stand before Christ and say that we have tried to live a Godly life and that we know we have failed, but that our faith was unwavering. For many of us, we will hang our heads in shame because we never did this. I wish to not be one of those, but I know in my heart that I will be. Pray for me brothers and sisters, as I pray for you.

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 25

We have reached Rung 25, which has been a struggle for me. You are reading these as they were written and finished, but I must admit as I was writing these it took me some time to finish the final six rungs. The first twenty-four have been relatively difficult to produce a solid article for, as I have been feeling more tired and restless the more, I write. Whether that be as my friend Yianni says, “Snitches get stitches” or simply me struggling by my own feebleness and passions I cannot say. However, I can rest assured that I have not reached humility and that I have not destroyed the passions. I have not become dispassionate and am to judge things clearly and effectively without putting my own biases into the matter. St. John in the 25th rung becomes even more serious as we near the end of the journey. We have climbed so far and can look back on everything that we have overcome, but still though without overcoming the last six rungs, we have yet to complete our journey. The 25th rung is destroying the passions.

St. John writes, “Let all who are led by the Spirit of God enter with us into this spiritual and wise gathering, holding in their spiritual hands the God-inscribed tablets of knowledge. We have met, we have investigated, and we have probed the meaning of this precious inscription. And one said: ‘It means constant oblivion of one’s achievements.’ Another: ‘It is the acknowledgement of oneself as the last of all and the greatest sinner of all.’ And another: ‘The mind’s recognition of one’s weakness and impotence.’ Another again: ‘In fits of rage it means to forestall one’s neighbour and be first to stop the quarrel.’ And again another: ‘Recognition of divine grace and divine mercy.’ And again another: ‘The feeling of a contrite soul, and the renunciation of one’s own will.’ But when I had listened to all this and had attentively and soberly considered it, I found that I had not been able to comprehend the blessed sense of that virtue from what had been said. Therefore, last of all, having gathered what fell from the lips of those learned and blessed fathers as a dog gathers the crumbs that fall from the table, I too gave my definition of it and said: ‘Humility is a nameless grace in the soul, its name known only to those who have learned it by experience. It is unspeakable wealth, a name and gift from God, for it is said: Learn not from an angel, not from man, and not from a book, but from Me, that is, from Me indwelling, from My illumination and action in you, for I am meek and humble in heart and in thought and in spirit, and your souls shall find rest from conflicts and relief from arguments.” We must learn from the fathers of the church. In the west, learning and speaking about the Church fathers will get you a lot of looks. In fact many will question why I quote more of the Church fathers than scripture. While scripture is certainly a factor in how we live our lives, we also know that scripture is to be lived. Those who have came before us have lived the scriptures with their whole hearts and their writings can be very valuable. Here St. John explains that seeking humility he went to the different opinions on humility and divine grace. In it we see that St. John finally sees that humility and the power to overcome our obstacles in life are to allow the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. You can read the scriptures and as many books as you want, but without the experience and indwelling of the Holy Spirit, overcoming the passions will not be achieved. We must rest within Christ. Only then can we achieve that which is to destroy the passions.

Secondly St. John writes, “Painstaking repentance, mourning cleansed of all impurity, and holy humility in beginners, are as different and distinct from each other as yeast and flour from bread. By open repentance the soul is broken and refined; it is brought to a certain unity, I will even say a commingling with God, by means of the water of genuine sorrow. Then, kindled by the fire of the Lord, blessed humility becomes bread and is made firm without the leaven of pride. Therefore when this holy three-fold cord or, rather, heavenly rainbow, unites into one power and activity, it acquires its own effects and properties. And whatever you name as a sign of one of them, is a token also of another. And so I shall try to prove what I have just said by a brief demonstration” Here I will take my liberty and use the bread as my example as well, but try to further explain it more precise terms. When one makes prosphora, the person goes into it with prayer and repentance. This is the first step in that we must make a true repentance. So too when a baker makes bread, they prepare themselves by gathering the ingredients. We have been gathering the ingredients by climbing the ladder and learning how to control ourselves with the different areas of our lives that hinder our relationship with God. We must repent and begin with a clean heart. We must make sure that our flour is pure and white before we begin. Secondly, we add the yeast, which the Holy Spirit. For most of us this at birth, when we are entered into infant baptism. For someone like me, this occurred in 2017 when I entered the Church through Chrismation. I received the gift of the Holy Spirit and partook of Holy Communion for the first time. The Holy Spirit entered my body and began to make the bread rise and grow towards spiritual maturity. From there, the bread needs time to rise. You put in a warm, dark place. You let it rise and proof as you wait. So too, as a Christian through prayer and the divine services the bread of our lives is put in a warm place to grow and mature. Over time it gets bigger and bigger until the devil comes along and punches us back down, deflating our spirits and weakening us. But God is allowing us this time to grow once again. You might have let your bread rise several times before it is ready for the oven. Once it is ready for the oven, God allows us to enter the heat of the battle, the oven. From there we enter the fray, and we begin to be heated. This is the most crucial stage. If we have been strong in our faith and are pure of heart, the oven will heat us, but with the Love of Christ. We will turn out perfect and will enter heaven. If not, the fires of the world will burn us, and we get scorched. Some of us will be burnt, but not too burnt and will still be good enough to serve at the Divine Liturgy. Others however will crumble and break and be inedible. Even still the worst of us will be burnt and blackened and not worthy of the Kingdom of Heaven and will be cast out from heaven and into the fires of Gehenna. Though we might take lumps along the way it is the calling of all of us to be perfected in love by God. To let our bread rise and become the very chamber of the Holy Spirit and the Body of Christ. I pray that during Lent this season we have grown and become more like Christ.

St. John also says, “Humility is a divine shelter to prevent us from seeing our achievements. Humility is an abyss of self-abasement, inaccessible to any thief. Humility is a strong tower against the face of the enemy.1 The enemy shall not prevail against him, nor shall the son, or rather, the thought of iniquity do him evil: and he will cut off his enemies from his face and will conquer them that hate him” Humility is like the grand castles we see dotting the landscapes of Europe. Built strong and fortified they are difficult to overcome even in the best of weather. So too, when we enter into the Church we begin building our own castle, we must build it with the strongest of materials, the stones that the ladder is built on. When we build the castle, we know the devil will try to assault it. If we have used the information from the Ladder and the scriptures, we are able to combat the devil with every available tool that we have in our arsenal. Some will be better equipped at this, but this comes with experience. The only way in which one truly achieves the grace of God is living. We are not called to be isolationists and remove ourselves from all things, only to detach ourselves from the value that we find in this life. We must practice our faith for it to grow.

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 24

 

            “The morning light precedes the sun, and the precursor of all humility is meekness. Therefore let us hear in what order the Light arranges these virtues, for He says: Learn of Me, for I am meek and humble in heart.4 So then before looking at the sun, which is humility, we must be illumined by the light, which is meekness, and then we can look with a clear gaze at the sun. For it is impossible, absolutely impossible, to gaze upon the sun before we have experienced that light, as we have learnt from the order in which the Lord has put these virtues.”  That’s how St. John of the Ladder begins this rung of the Ladder as we are now well into our journey and climbing the ladder in earnest. Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is the epitome of humility and love. His example is a witness to us all that we should be filled with the Holy Spirit and the love that passes all understanding. In doing so, we must learn how to control ourselves and our pride if we are to make it any further up the Ladder. Let’s look at few statements made by St. John and expand further on how to become a humble person.

            First St. John says, “Meekness is the buttress of patience, the door, or rather, the mother of love, and the foundations of discernment, for it is said: The Lord will teach the meek His way. It prepares us for the forgiveness of sins; it is boldness in prayer, an abode of the Holy Spirit. But to whom shall I look? Even to him that is meek and quiet.”  I would like to point out something regarding the above statement. St. John calls this boldness in prayer. The reason today we do not have the things that we ask for, is not because God does not love us. It is also not because we are not worthy of them. It is because we are not bold enough in our prayer. Being bold in our prayer doesn’t mean we ask for fancy things, or special blessings, but rather that we hold God at his word. That everything and anything we ask in His name will be given to us. Especially because it benefits our salvation and our walk on the straight and narrow path. By being bold in prayer, and learning to be humble and meek, we prepare an abode within our hearts for the Holy Spirit to dwell and rest. The Day of Pentecost comes alive for us again as we enter into the fullness of faith and love. God allows us to work with Him in contemplating our salvation and the acceptance of the gifts, or the rejection. Every day we must make a conscience effort to restore ourselves in the grace of God. Doing so only comes with boldness in prayer.

            The second statement from St. John that I would like to expand on is this, “Meekness is the fellow-worker of obedience, the guide of the brotherhood, a curb for the furious, a check to the irritable, a minister of joy, the imitation of Christ, something proper to angels, shackles for demons, a shield against peevishness.” In our ascent up the ladder, we have discussed a great deal about obedience and imitating Christ. As Christians we are to be mini-Christs we are to unite ourselves with the Holy Spirit in that the mortal can become the divine. Our humility and our meekness is the only way in which one is able to achieve this. As we have seen through the fall of Adam and Eve in the garden, and the fall of Satan and his legions of angels, pride is the cause of the fall of all things. We have been granted so much from God that we become greedy and want more. Instead of allowing God to work in our lives, we allow the enemy to protrude our thoughts and to seep his lies into hearts. We want to take from the tree of good and evil, and we want to become greater than the Creator. In doing so we lose this meekness that God wants to see from us. He wants to us to be a minister of joy, rather than ministers of death. St. John of the Ladder says, “God is called love, and also justice. That is why the wise man4 in the Song of Songs says to the pure heart: Justice has loved thee. Also the father of the wise man says: Good and just is the Lord. And of those who are His namesakes He says that they are saved: Who saves the upright of heart; and again: His countenance sees and visits those who are honest and just.” We must constantly remember that we are the namesake of Jesus Christ, the light of light, true God of true God. If we refuse that moniker, then Christ will refuse us. He will say to us that he never knew us. Many will call on his name but only those who live in Christ, i.e., the faithful of the Orthodox Church, will be able to truly grasp the fullness of meekness and live according to the will of Christ. Those of us who have left father and brother and mother and sister to be joined with the Church forsaking all others will be greatly rewarded if we keep on the path. We will not just call on the name of God, but live with God in both spirit and truth.

            Being humble is a difficult calling. We constantly see people wanting credit for the work they’ve accomplished and for the things they’ve achieved. Rather than seeking the glory from men on social media, it is better to receive the glory from God in secret. I have been writing for almost two months now trying to decipher the meaning of the Orthodox Church and how to practically embrace it in everyday life. I have discovered that it is best to be experienced and not read. Though there is nothing wrong with books. Through these articles, I have experienced the faith in such a way that has had a profound impact on me. As we climb the ladder towards its final destination, I see that we have yet to come to a realization that humility and meekness in all things are the root of a solid relationship with Christ. Pray for me dear brothers and sisters as I pray for you, hoping that I can rightly teach the words of Jesus Christ for the benefit of all people.

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 23

 

As I have said many times, St. John of the Ladder tends to bring about the last chapter in the Ladder with continuation into the next chapter. While there is a possibility that you could have combined these two chapters into a single step, separating vainglory and pride as two separate rungs of the Ladder allows for a more thorough approach to life and to give the reader an opportunity to prepare themselves for future assaults of the devil as well as the rest of the rungs that we have yet to climb. If we have made it this far up the Ladder as few have, then the view below will begin to give us a picture of the stench and the destruction that we have left for the glory and rewards of heaven that we are approaching. Yes, yes, things are going to be harder here from the top. The more we have climbed the harder the fall from here, but it is not all lost. We can pick ourselves up and we can get back on the Ladder, we just might have to go through a few extra rungs by returning to the place from where we fell.  With that said, we need to explain the heart of the matter of this particular issue and rung on the Ladder. Yes we discussed vainglory in the previous post, but this is all about pride. St. John says, “Pride is denial of God, an invention of the devil, the despising of men, the mother of condemnation, the offspring of praise, a sign of sterility, flight from divine assistance, the precursor of madness, the herald of falls, a foothold for satanic possession, source of anger, door of hypocrisy, the support of demons, the guardian of sins, the patron of unsympathy, the rejection of compassion, a bitter inquisitor, an inhuman judge, an opponent of God, a root of blasphemy”  He also says, “The beginning of pride is the consummation of vainglory; the middle is the humiliation of our neighbour, the shameless parade of our labours, complacency in the heart, hatred of exposure; and the end is denial of God’s help, the extolling of one’s own exertions, fiendish character.”  St. John also says, “It is shameful to be proud of the adornments of others, but utter madness to fancy one deserves God’s gifts. Be exalted only by such merits7 as you had before your birth. But what you got after your birth, as also birth itself, God gave you. Only those virtues which you have obtained without the cooperation of the mind belong to you, because your mind was given you by God. Only such victories as you have won without the co-operation of the body have been accomplished by your efforts, because the body is not yours but a work of God.” Lets go ahead and discuss these two thoughts

First, we have to understand that pride is the denial of God. Satan and his legions of angels that fell with him denied that God was the ruler of all and thus they fell from Heaven and were cast out. Thus when we are full of pride, we are cast down into the pits of hell and our souls are tormented by the pains we have heaped on ourselves. Nothing we have comes from our own merits, and thus we must understand that is by the grace of God that we achieve all things. When God allows us to suffer for our benefit, then we must do so with humility. When we curse and drag God’s name through the mud, we only heap more pride on ourselves and continually condemn our immortality to hell. When we repent, we repent not just for ourselves but for every generation and every person in the world. When we fall, the whole world falls. If the world could fall through one man, what makes you certain that the world doesn’t fall again every time you sin? Your pride is what makes you blind. It is what keeps others from accepting the truth of Orthodoxy. It was has weighed the world down for all these millennia and yet, we continue to stand here, day after day and build our pride up because we do not wish to see the benefit of humility. With humility comes grace, the power of the Holy Spirit, and the forgiveness of our sins. Without cooperation with God and without fostering the virtues within yourself how do you expect to serve God with a full and pure heart? You just can’t, it is impossible. Therefore shed off your old yoke, the yoke of pride, and turn around your shameless parade of labours into fruitful productive labours and live a shame free life.

Was not expecting such a direct attack again on myself and my heart. The pride that wells up inside of me is immense sometimes and it is hard to control. I have been trying my best to rid myself of all forms of pride and I have not yet succeeded. I pray that through your prayers dear brothers and sisters, that I might overcome this struggle. I cannot seem to do so on my own and ask the Lord to help me.

Amen.

 

Ladder of Divine Ascent Rung 22

 

If the 21^st Rung was where I fell off, knowing my heart and my mind, then there is no way that I have achieved victory over the last of these. Throwing off the yoke of the devil was never easy. It was always going to be a difficult decision and task set before us. Do we flee from that which appears easily and luxurious, to something that appears tiresome and poverty-stricken? Or do we go with the poverty-stricken appearance that is truly luxurious? The question and decision laid before us, is whether we are willing to sacrifice our pride for the sake of our immortal souls. Recently as I have stated, there have been issues with me and my cowardly outlook on life. I have fled from the danger God placed me in, to a place of even more suffering and pain that I could even imagine. But that is what happens when you reject God’s love. The pride that you endure makes you suffer, both physically and spiritually and I have experienced both as of late. St. John says, “With regard to its form, vainglory is a change of nature, a perversion of character, a note of blame. And with regard to its quality, it is a dissipation of labours, a waste of sweat, a betrayal of treasure, a child of unbelief, the precursor of pride, shipwreck in harbour, an ant on the threshing-floor which, though small, has designs upon all one’s labour and fruit. The ant waits for the gathering of the wheat, and vainglory for the gathering of the riches of virtue; for the one loves to steal and the other to squander.” He also says, “The sun shines on alike, and vainglory beams on all activities. For instance, I am vainglorious when I fast, and when I relax the fast in order to be unnoticed I am again vainglorious over my prudence. When well-dressed I am quite overcome by vainglory, and when I put on poor clothes I am vainglorious again. When I talk I am defeated, and when I am silent I am again defeated by it. However I throw this prickly-pear, a spike stands upright.”

So what does it meant to be vainglorious? Well in the above statements its pretty clear. We are a waste of sweat, a betrayal of treasure. We have gathered riches only for them to be stolen from us by our own pride. We are like the man who spends all his hours accumulating wealth and pleasures, only for that very night for his soul to be demanded from him by God. Prayer, fasting, love of your neighbor is good, yes, but in reality, it is not good if you do not have the light of Christ illuminating your heart. Without Christ, everything that we do is for nothing. We could give away everything, we could fast, we could pray and if we don’t have Christ then we are still without. The protestants pray, but they do not have Christ. The Catholics pray, and they too do not have Christ. The Muslims pray and they do not have Christ. Only in Orthodoxy is Christ to be found. We know where the Holy Spirit is, we cannot say where he is not. For the Holy Spirit works throughout the world, but especially through the Church and we know he is in the Church. We pray that by our struggles as we continue up the ladder that we will rid ourselves of pride. If being a coward was one of the steps to ridding ourselves of pride then we must acquire the bravery of heart to proclaim the gospel without fear or condemnation and to dare call God Father. We must pray: “Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name; thy kingdom come; thy will be done; on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil.” Without which we cannot over come pride. We will continually swim in the cares and destruction of life, without so much as gaining ground. We have to stand firm in the faith. Neither going to the left or to the right. We must remain on the straight and narrow path, the path that leads us to salvation. St. John says, “There is a glory that comes from the Lord, for He says: Those who glorify Me, I will glorify. And there is a glory that dogs us through diabolic intrigue, for it is said: Woe, when all men shall speak well of you. You may be sure that it is the first kind of glory when you regard it as harmful and avoid it in every possible way, and hide your manner of life wherever you go. But the other you will know when you do something, however trifling, hoping that you will be observed by men.”

Oh how much sweeter is it to receive the glory from God than to receive it from men? It is the sweetest of sweet the fragrance of life. The very beginning of the transformation of our corruptibility into incorruption. Let us pray that God through the prayers that we offer to him will accept them and that God will protect us from all sort of pride and destruction. I know that God is on the side of all those who love Him and I pray that I will love Him above all else, sacrificing my own will for the sake of the Kingdom of God. I leave you with this advice from St. John. He says, “When we invite glory, or when it comes to us from others uninvited, or when out of vainglory we decide upon a certain course of action, we should remember our mourning and should think of the holy fear with which we stood before God in solitary prayer; and in this way we shall certainly put shameless vainglory out of countenance—if we are really concerned to attain true prayer. If this is insufficient, then let us briefly recollect our death. And if this is also ineffective, at least let us fear the shame that follows honour. For he who exalts himself will be humbled1 not only there, but certainly here as well”

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 21

 

            Alright so, we’ve reached the final ten rungs of the Ladder. With that being said, the journey has now become for us one of perilousness and frustration. I have unfortunately had to take a couple days off from writing after I finished the last blog, and while there wont be a shortage of posts, I certainly have not felt the same as I did when I first started this massive undertaking. My mind has not been where it needs to be the past few days, as I have been struggling to find the words to discuss the final few topics with you on this journey up the ladder. I understand now why so few make the journey and why even fewer make it the full thirty rungs. One of those reasons is cowardice. In fact there are a wide variety of cowards in the world today, unwilling to stand for their faith and protect the freedom in Christ that we have. People wish for a life of ease and comfort, of peace, of luxury. St. John says, “Cowardice is a childish disposition in an old, vainglorious soul. Cowardice is a falling away from faith that comes of expecting the unexpected.”  We must therefore flee from this, and know that everything comes from God for our own salvation. The demons could do nothing without the allowance from God to do so. Therefore, we know that God is the ultimate authority on all things, the master of the universe. St. John says, “Fear is a rehearsing of danger beforehand; or again, fear is a trembling sensation of the heart, alarmed and troubled by unknown misfortunes. Fear is a loss of conviction” Many of us, including myself are weak of heart and falter and the slightest chance of fear. We lose our conviction from God that his truth is beyond anything and everything that we can comprehend, yet we believe the lies of the demons. We begin to lose heart, and faith and tremble, not from divine power, but from the weakness of our souls. St. John says, “Those who mourn over their sins but are insensible to every other sorrow do not feel cowardice, but the cowardly often have mental breakdowns. And this is natural. For the Lord rightly forsakes the proud that the rest of us may learn not to be puffed up.” I am convicted in my soul of this. My pride has destroyed me, destroyed my life. I have been welled up with pride to the point that I have become a coward. One who flees danger instead of standing for what is right. I have destroyed my own soul for the sake of no confrontation with the enemy. How St. John of the Ladder must be ashamed of me. I do not wish to fight, I do not wish to look my enemy in the face. Rather I want to flee and hide like the apostles did after the crucifixion. I want to be as far away as humanly possible from anyone that has ill towards me. Simply because I am a coward. There is no way around this one. I am a coward.

            But there is advice and hope for us yet, even though we might be cowards. Of that I am comforted somewhat. Despite the fact that I know and openly admit I am a coward. St. John says, “Do not hesitate to go late at night to those places where you usually feel afraid. But if you yield only a little to such weakness, then this childish and ridiculous infirmity will grow old with you. As you go on your way, arm yourself with prayer. When you reach the place, stretch out your hands. Flog your enemies with the name of Jesus, for there is no stronger weapon in heaven or earth. When you get rid of the disease (of fear), praise Him who has delivered you. If you continue to be thankful, He will protect you for ever.” Unfortunately, I am a coward. And St. John calls me what I am. Both ridiculous and childish. I do not wish for this to grow with me, but rather that God will take from me my childish disposition and replace it with a manly and honest disposition. I pray that God will be help me through the use of the Jesus Prayer to overcome my enemies and to understand the statues of God more firmly and more truly. I know that up until this point in my life, I have failed God in this respect and I humbly ask for your prayers. I ask this, because as I have fallen, so too has the world. Every time I have acted in cowardice, the world has fallen that much further away from God, and I ask that through your prayers I might be reconciled back to the Church for not only my sake, but for the sake of the Kingdom of God. St. John says, “My hair and my flesh shuddered said Eliphaz, when describing the malice of the demon. Sometimes the soul, and sometimes the flesh, turns coward first, and the one passes its infirmity on to the other. If this untimely fear does not pass into the soul when the flesh flinches, then deliverance from the disease is at hand. But the actual freedom from cowardice comes when we eagerly accept all unexpected events with a contrite heart.” I have never learned to accept unexpected events. Maybe that’s because I grew up in a household that banded together when times got tough and never really saw them as unexpected events, or because I was sheltered from them or whatever. Now being thirty years old, I realize how much of a coward I am. I am not brave like my friend Yianni, the former marine, turned cop. Nor am I strong and brave like my godfather, who at the slightest turn of events begins to pray even harder, not faltering. Nor am as I strong as my friends, who in the face of being ridiculed and cut down because of their work, took it in stride and did not say anything. Rather they stood there and continued taking the beating spiritually because it was beneficial for their souls. I do not do that. I run and hide and lock my door. We cannot do that. We cannot allow Satan to make us flee! I wish no more to say of this, for it hurts me and pains my soul to think that I have fallen from the ladder at this point. I must climb once again and get through this rung so that I may go to the next rung.

May God grant us hope and peace. Apologies for speaking so much about myself in this blog. I love you all.

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 20

 

As St. John often does, he cycles back to a previous topic, only to expand on it further in the next.  As I previously mentioned, sleep will hinder our prayer life if we allow it. Again with all things, being created in the image of God, this means that we too have the power to allow things to happen or not. We choose what we want to do and allow to affect our lives in the sense that if we succumb to the temptation of fatigue, then we have rejected the necessity of prayer. One of the most important aspects of spiritual life is keeping vigil over our souls.  Even now as I am tempted to go to bed and reject finishing this until the morning I know that my thoughts on this matter might not be the same as they are now, fresh on my mind. But here, St. John gets deep, deeper than we’ve gone before. Yes he was writing to monks, but if you replace the word monks with Christians the meaning is still the same. He writes, “Now let us see how we stand before God our King, when we stand at our prayers in the evening, or during the day and night. For some at their evening all-night vigil lift up their hands in prayer as if they were incorporeal and stripped of all care. Others stand at that time singing psalms. Others are more occupied in reading. And some out of weakness courageously resist sleep by working with their hands. Others try to feel the horror of the thought of death, hoping thus to obtain contrition. And of all these, the first and last are in all-night vigil for the love of God; the second do what befits a monk; while the third go the lowest way. Yet God accepts and values the offerings of each according to their intention and power.” Keeping Vigil over the soul means that you are watching it, allowing God to guide you and spending your time worshipping and praising God rather than falling into idleness and sin.

            As we look deeper into the world of keeping vigil, we are looking at the world today and searching for the answers as to how to quench our bodies from falling into to deeper sin and destruction. St. John writes, “Vigil is a quenching of lust, deliverance from dream phantoms, a tearful eye, a softened heart, the guarding of thoughts, the dissolving of food, the subduing of passions, the taming of spirits, the bridling of the tongue, the banishment of phantasies.”  We keep vigil not only to pray and praise God, but also to make sure that we are continually striving towards the openness and the heart filled with the Holy Spirit. Without doing so, we can fall into the trap of the devil and become more like them, rejecting God and filling our lives with pleasure rather than with salvation. Like anything else one wishes to master, vigil takes time and energy and practice. If one believes they are going to be able to keep long vigil on the first time they try, then they are greatly deceived. It takes years of steady practice and growth for people to obtain high levels of vigil and even then only with God’s help. If we wish to seek it solely on our own, then we have lost our salvation without even trying. The demons will rejoice at this because they have seen that their work was not needed to draw one away from God. Furthermore an abundance of sleep does not do the soul good either. As my priest told me once, “You can sleep when you’re dead.” Until then, sleep is simply a hinderance to continuing the fight against Satan and his allies. St. John says, “Long sleep is an unjust comrade; it robs the lazy of half their life, and even more.” We spend half of our lives in sleep and lying down. How much more could we accomplish if we put off the wild slumbers of the enemy and practiced prayer and vigil during this time? How much more could we grow spiritually, singing hymns and praising God? Alas, most people will reject this and call me a fanatic. No, I am not, rather I am someone who cares deeply about God so much, that I would rather sacrifice my own life for the sake of the Kingdom than to lose my salvation in slumber and idleness of sleep. St. John says, “It may happen that continuous meditation on passages of the Psalms is prolonged into the hour of sleep. And it may happen that the demons put these passages into our mind in order to lead us to pride. I would not have mentioned the third case, had not someone forced me to do so. The soul which has spent all day unceasingly engaged with the word of the Lord will love to be occupied with it in sleep too. For this second grace is in a special sense a reward for the first and helps us to avoid falls and phantasies. How much fun and happiness that would bring to our souls to spend even those hours of our nightly slumber with the Lord? But if we do not have the proper heart and mindset, we will be led to pride and our downfall, being puffed up and disobedient towards God. But how often do we dream of things that we have thought about all day? I do that a lot. I tend to think about it continuously all day and suddenly I have a dream that either solves my problem for me, or makes me terrified even more of the situation at hand. So too with God. If we meditate on his words and his commandments all day long, then at night at the hour of our sleep, we will drift into a meditation that will expand our knowledge and foretaste of the divine. But if we are not careful in guarding our souls, the demons will come and hijack those meditations and cause our destruction as I mentioned above. But now is the time to prepare our hearts, our minds for this spiritual struggle. We have ten rungs left after this, the journey is perilous beyond this point. Without the proper guidance, we will not be able to continue. May he who has ears to hear, let him here.

            I leave you with the words of St. John as he ended this rung. He says, “This is the twentieth step. He who has mounted it has received light in his heart.”

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 19

 

We are now at rung nineteen, and we are dealing with sleep. Everyone likes it, everyone needs it, but is it really the best for us? Well both yes and no. Obviously the Lord grants us recovery from our weakness with sleep. We are able to heal and recover from illness with sleep. Sleep in itself is not a bad thing. However like anything in the Orthodox world, too much of something becomes a bad thing. In the same way, too much sleep becomes a bad thing. St. John says, “Just as prolonged drinking is a matter of habit, so too from habit comes too much sleeping. Therefore we must struggle with the question of sleep, especially in the easy days of obedience, because a long-standing habit is difficult to cure.”  So there we have it folks, Sleep causes us to lose our obedience. Lately I have been having trouble sleeping, rather I have been staying up, reading through the Ladder and through various other texts as I continue to compile my thoughts down, which is why there have been so many articles lately. As such, I have been discovering that through prayer I have also gained energy and revitalization that I was previously lacking. Sleep hinders us from keeping watch over our souls, as it did the apostles during the arresting of Jesus. We see that through this, they were physically and spiritually weak. Not regarding the commands of their master and teacher, who had shown them the devotion to God for those years they were with Him. In turn, they show us what we become when we do not heed the words of the master. St. John says, “Let us observe and we shall find that the spiritual trumpet serves as an outward signal for the gathering of the brethren, but it is also the unseen signal for the assembly of our foes. So some of them stand by our bed and when we get up urge us to lie down again: ‘Wait,’ they say, ‘till the preliminary hymns are finished; then you can go to church.’ Others plunge those standing at prayer into sleep. Some produce severe, unusual pains in the stomach. Others egg us on to make conversation in church. Some entice the mind to shameful thoughts. Others make us lean against the wall as though from fatigue. Sometimes they involve us in fits of yawning. Some of them bring on waves of laughter during prayer, thereby desiring to stir up the anger of God against us. Some force us to hurry the reading or singing—merely from laziness; others suggest that we should sing more slowly for the pleasure of it; and sometimes they sit at our mouths and shut them, so that we can scarcely open them. He who realizes that he is standing before God will be as still as a pillar during prayer and will pray with heartfelt feeling; and none of the aforesaid demons will make sport of him.”  So let’s once again delve into what St. John is saying and why this is important for our spiritual lives.

So the demons have hijacked our sleep. What a surprise. We know, being immortal and incorporeal they do the work of their own master, the devil who when they have grasped a hold of us, try with earnest to bring us down. So why should our sleep be one of the hinderances to their own plans? We see the demons try and develop in us a sense that sleep is good, that sleep will cure us from whatever ailments we have. They also try to use our own frailty against us, creating in us a fatigue that makes us perform all sorts of wicked deeds. From talking in church, to hurriedly singing the appointed hymns to even slowing them down, because it weakens our minds. We yawn, we have shameful thoughts, and we constantly laugh when we shouldn’t. All things I have discussed and pointed out. All this stirs within us the anger of God, that we would violate his sacred commandments over a few moments of respite. When we are appointed to talk our brains become mush and the words that we know and are supposed to be saying cannot come out from our mouths. Sometimes we have overindulged in eating so much that upon waking or before sleep we try to quench the belly for a moment of peace. Instead of taming ourselves we once again fall victim to the passions. Of course, the most egregious, is that when we want to attend church services and the liturgy in particular, the demons tell us that we need more sleep on a Sunday morning and so instead of forcing ourselves to go through with we know to be right, we return to bed, comforted by the warm cozy sheets that we have laid out.  They also try to make us skip Orthros, meaning we miss the reading of the lives of the saints, and we miss  getting to have spiritual food fed to us, for the well-being of our souls. And yet, all of this could be avoided if we merely decided to give ourselves a slap in the face and tell our minds that we can sleep once the job at hand has taken place. Maybe that means waking up five minutes early so you can get to church on time. Setting an alarm, whatever works. The monks would use a semantron to wake themselves up. The alarms on our phones would work just as well. Being able to force ourselves to do something usually yields the best results. And it wouldn’t be a struggle if it was easy.

There is a lot to digest from that quote from St. John. After the next rung, we will be two thirds of the way through and nearing the completion of this monumental task that has been laid before us. If we are to achieve any spiritual growth from this, we must learn to curtail ourselves and sleep. While it is good to rest for even the Lord rested on the seventh day, we cannot fall into perpetual laziness to the point that it interferes with our work and with our spiritual life. Going about our lives with a clear conscience means we must reject the idleness of sinners and force ourselves to do the things God has called us to do. It is difficult to get up at 5:30am on a Monday morning to say the prayers before we begin our day. Even more so when one has worked an eight hour shift and comes home to say the prayers before sleep. Our minds failing from the exhaustion placed upon them from the toils of this life, must be rejuvenated with supplication and prayers. Without this, we will not serve God in the full capacity that we are called to do. May God grant us freedom from sleep that we might serve God in fullness and faith.

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 18

 

We are now reaching our final ascent. We have reached rung eighteen and are climbing slowly but surely up the ladder. When I started this series, it seemed an impossible task to break down such a great and lengthy book. Instead, what I have found are practical lessons that are forming part of a larger work, that will probably end up being a book. It will contain everything I’ve written about the Ladder as well all my previous posts and will be the source of my journey into Orthodoxy. I’ve been attending an Orthodox parish for almost five years now and there are many practical lessons I’ve learned and will continue to share through this blog. I am not transitioning this blog into anything it has not already been. A place where Orthodoxy flourishes and where you can get a lay approach to the theological context of the Orthodox Church. The only Church of Jesus Christ. In doing so, we must continue to go up the Ladder and reach our destination. In so we will undoubtedly reach the point where we will need to face the death of our soul. Im not talking about a physical death, we have already covered that point, rather I am discussing a spiritual deadening of the soul, one that does not have the power to overcome the wiles of the devil and one that sleeps in sin and sickness. This is insensibility at its finest, one that will cause a grown man to go insane and become a wildling. Let us see what St. John says. He says, “He who has lost sensibility is a brainless philosopher, a self-condemned commentator, a self-contradictory windbag, a blind man who teaches others to see. He talks about healing a wound and does not stop irritating it. He complains of sickness and does not stop eating what is harmful. He prays against it, and immediately goes and does it. And when he has done it, he is angry with himself; and the wretched man is not ashamed of his own words. ‘I am doing wrong,’ he cries, and eagerly continues to do so. His mouth prays against his passion, and his body struggles for it. He philosophises about death, but he behaves as if he were immortal. He groans over the separation of soul and body, but drowses along as if he were eternal. He talks of temperance and self-control, but he lives for gluttony. He reads about the judgment and begins to smile. He reads about vainglory, and is vainglorious while actually reading. He repeats what he has learnt about vigil, and drops asleep on the spot. He praises prayer, but runs from it as from the plague. He blesses obedience, but he is the first to disobey. He praises detachment, but he is not ashamed to be spiteful and to fight for a rag. When angered he gets bitter, and he is angered again at his bitterness; and he does not feel that after one defeat he is suffering another. Having overeaten he repents, and a little later again gives way to it. He blesses silence, and praises it with a spate of words. He teaches meekness, and during the actual teaching frequently gets angry. Having woken from passion he sighs, and shaking his head, he again yields to passion. He condemns laughter, and lectures on mourning with a smile on his face. Before others he blames himself for being vainglorious, and in blaming himself is only angling for glory.  himself. He looks people in the face with passion, and talks about chastity. While frequenting the world, he praises the solitary life, without realizing that he shames himself. He extols almsgivers, and reviles beggars. All the time he is his own accuser, and he does not want to come to his senses—I will not say cannot.” Okay so yea. That’s a lot. Which is why I put it here. It’s a lot, because St. John is being blunt. Those who are insensible are given over to the passions in such a way that it is difficult for them to come back from it. However, with a little look into it, there is hope for all of us.

We are constantly battling, constantly striving for the salvation that comes from God. The insensible person too is said to be striving, but returns evermore to the same sins over and over again without thought or recourse. Constant vigilance of the soul is important, bringing us to repentance. We have discussed all the previous sins that he mentions and more. We understand that person who is insensible doe not care that he is wasting his life, only that he wants the temporary forgiveness from God and continues on in his dealings. The insensible person is leading those to damnation through their efforts and tries to pass it off as living a just life. We must not repeatedly fall into the same sins as the ones that came before. We must be striving to rid ourselves of the passions and become dispassionate, being able to react to things in the right mindset. If we live in obedience, we must honor the obedience that has been set before us. We must reject overeating as not to be satisfied by the food, but rather nourished and strengthened by it. We must be silent, so as to be not condemned by our words. We must strive to be a beacon of prayer. Though we are not monks, a few hours of our day spent in prayer, rather than watching television would do us all good.  We must turn from anger, rather and be insightful, instructing those who we have been given as brothers and sisters to further enrich their lives, not to tear them down when they have wronged us. Those who need our uttermost care are often the ones we reject and send away for fear they might embarrass us and bring shame to the community. We must shun the glory for ourselves when repent, understanding that heaping the glory on ourselves removes the glory from God who gave us the repentance. We are called to be children of God, not to be tools of death. We must have self-control over ourselves and tame our innermost being before we can even think about helping others. We are not pure of heart yet and yet we act as if we are. We act without fear of death and without the care of our souls. We go to clubs and dance halls with riotous music and with lewd dance moves. We watch porn, we jump off cliffs. We act as if tomorrow will never come. We live for the moment, not for eternity. I will say that I have had a few insensible moments in my life. Dragging myself down and throwing my self into the pit. I have lived as if tomorrow would never come and that I would not have to face the judge. But in the back of my mind, there was always the sense of urgency, the urgency to repent and to come back to the fullness of faith. In doing so, I was able to drag myself upwards this time, returning to God. We must do this brothers and sisters, we must forsake the world of the living and live for the world of the immortal. Time will come for us to all face the judge. We need to be prepared. Are we willing to live in a world of vainglory and sin? I would hope not.  I will leave you with this, hoping that you will in some ways grow and keep yourself away from insensibility and corruption of the soul. St. John says, “I was astounded at the words of this raving creature and asked her about her father, wishing to know her name, and she said; ‘I have no single parentage; my conception is mixed and indefinite. Satiety nourishes me, time makes me grow, and bad habit entrenches me. He who keeps this habit will never be rid of me. Be constant in vigil, meditating on the eternal judgment; then perhaps I shall to some extent relax my hold on you. Find out what caused me to be born in you, and then battle against my mother; for she is not in all cases the same. Pray often at the coffins, and engrave an indelible image of them in your heart. For unless you inscribe it there with the pencil of fasting, you will never conquer me.’

Pray for me dear brothers and sisters, as I pray for you. God bless.

Amen.

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 17

    So we’ve finished our discussion of money and now lead into a discussion on poverty. Now we understand that Poverty is not in and of itself a bad thing, rather is something can lead us to God. Poverty has become a huge talking point in our society today as we find ourselves with more and more poverty-stricken families than in the years past. We have seen the War on Poverty, and the government try to alleviate poverty through the use of programs and other such benefits that are supposedly used by the people to help them provide for their families. Christ said that we would always have the poor with us, and that we needed to take care of them. We see this with the apostles appointing the first deacons of the church, of which St. Stephen was one. We see churches reaching out and providing assistance to people when they are in need.  Poverty is a blessing in many ways let’s look at what St. John has to say about this, and continue on.

St. John says, “Great is he who piously renounces possessions, but holy is he who renounces his will. The one will receive a hundredfold, either in money or in graces, but the other will inherit eternal life.” In my last article I used a few quotes from this rung as well, as it had a lot of information in it that tied into the discussion of love of money. Here I will once again be trying to formulate the truth that goes along with poverty and how we should react to the gift God is giving us. God provides for us with the ability to have poverty in our lives, both monetary and spiritual poverty so as for us to rely on Him. When we are sick with spiritual poverty, we should turn to the Lord and ask him for faith, praying and giving all the glory to him. It’s like reading one of my previous posts about how to react to God’s call. Will we simply run and flee, or will we embrace it, using the time we are given to praise and worship God with no thought for the consequences? I myself have been in a bout of spiritual poverty lately, and though there were definitely moments when I chose to reject the gift that God was giving me, that time has passed. I am now openly embracing this opportunity God has given me in my life to use for His glory. Not for my own. I choose not to even think about giving myself earthly glory, instead waiting for God to use me to help further His Kingdom. Choosing to surrender myself to Him was the best decision of my life. Those who have wealth and a love of money have a deep spiritual poverty, one in which they choose not to rely on God. They openly mock His commandments, they refuse to accept the teachings of Christ, and they choose not to have any sort of dealings with those who do accept Christ. We see this throughout Hollywood today and throughout the world with rich people rarely attending Church and if they do, it is seen as a publicity stunt to garner more fame and recognition from the Christian populace. The church has a different story, one in which the rich boldly embraced Christ and one that is full of the mystery and grace of God. I am of course talking about Zacchaeus. That wee little man

We see here, that Zacchaeus was a publican, like Matthew, who was desperately seeking the Kingdom of God. Zacchaeus was so desperate, that he climbed the sycamore tree. When he did Jesus saw his faith, and rewarded him for his faith. In doing so, He dined with him. Zacchaeus gave away his wealth, taking away the spiritual poverty of his soul, but taking on physical and monetary poverty. We know from later traditions that he followed Christ everywhere and eventually followed Peter after the resurrection. When he did, they stopped in Caesarea, where he was appointed bishop by Peter. Zacchaeus gave up everything in search of the Kingdom of God. How much are we willing to sacrifice? I would say very little especially when we wont even become stewards of the church God gave us. We hold onto our spiritual poverty and search for monetary wealth. Our wealth is the Kingdom of God.  Jesus Christ died and rose again not for us to have lots of things like Joel Osteen says, but rather for us to have God living inside of us, uniting the mortal with the divine. In doing this, we as St. John says, “Some have burned much wood with a small fire; and with the help of one virtue some have escaped all the passions just mentioned. This virtue is called detachment, and it is born of experience and a taste of God and meditation on the account to be given at death.”

            In all honesty it is a simple thing to explain, we give up our spiritual wealth for that of this world. We surrender ourselves not to a spiritual father, but rather to an earthly master. Our souls hang in the balance like a thread, one that is dangling above our heads at every hour. The more we try to fight our way to salvation the more we lose it. When we give all to Christ for the sake of his Kingdom we obtain the gifts of the Holy Spirit and live with unwavering faith. The choice now dear brothers and sisters is up to you. Will you stand for God when he comes with his saints and angels to judge both living and the dead? Or will you flee from his face as an enemy? Will you melt or will you stand firm. I am calling you all now to repent and openly express the spiritual poverty in your lives and confess to the Almighty God that you need his light in your soul. For it will matter on judgement day.

Amen

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 16

 

Money. Money makes the world go round. Or so the saying says. I disagree. I believe that God makes the world go round and that money is just a tool in which we use to offer up a means of exchange. As we begin to study more and more of the Ladder, we grow and understand that the Ladder instructs us on the path that makes the most of our salvation, that draws us closer to God and worship in Christ. Our journey has already reached the halfway point, from here the journey becomes more perilous and dangerous and our chance of falling off increases. I therefore implore you my dear brothers and sisters in Christ, that you read my words carefully, that you take heed as to what I’m going to say. The Ladder is perilous. Be careful.

St. John tells us, “Avarice, or love of money, is the worship of idols, a daughter of unbelief, an excuse for infirmities, a foreboder of old age, a harbinger of drought, a herald of hunger. The lover of money sneers at the Gospel and is a wilful transgressor. He who has attained to love scatters his money. But he who says that he lives for love and for money has deceived himself.”  In today’s society we are all about get rich quick schemes, whether that be in the form of cryptocurrency, traditional finance, or other means we are always seeking a way to make it rich. However this is nothing new to mankind. As history will tell us, miners went west searching for gold in California, the ancients went searching for El Dorado and people have been obsessed with money since its very creation. The accumulation of wealth that we see in the world today is a sign that people have fallen from the straight and narrow and taken their own path. The world in which we live is constantly trying to have more money and more ability to spend the money on things that they do not need. We see this in the protestant churches around the world, preaching that God himself wants us to wealthy and happy and live our best life now. They are simply being deceived dear brothers and sisters, deceived and misguided by spirits that have out for us pure and utter destruction. They do indeed want us to live our best lives now, so that we cannot enjoy the eternal life and happiness in Jesus Christ at the Second Coming. St. John says, “The beginning of love of money is the pretext of almsgiving, and the end of it is hatred of the poor. So long as he is collecting he is charitable, but when the money is in hand he tightens his hold.” People forget to alms give and they certainly withhold the tithe to the Church. They don’t want their “hard earned money” being given to an organization that they fill like will misuse it, and will not seek their best interest. But the Church, is the organization that has the souls of people as its protectorate and they will do what is right and just every time.

In response to the love of money, we must therefore shun the love of it, and simply believe it to be as it is. A tool. Comfort and love of money should never be in the heart of a Christian. We should seek to turn away from fancy things and live a simple life. This simple life is summed up once again by a favorite saint of mine, that of St. Paisios of Mount Athos. St. Paisios lived with nothing but a couple cardboard boxes and blanket. He refused to accept even the tiniest bit of comfort and when someone bought him a new way to make tea he refused it saying it was of the devil. We have been given what has been accorded to us. Will it always be fair? No. Will we have everything that we desire? No. But in turn we must understand that we will not lack for anything in the Kingdom of God. God will always provide for those he loves and he loves all of us. I am ashamed of people today asking the government for more money, more stuff, more wealth for themselves, when as long as they are surviving and being able to provide for their families they have enough. In the same way, companies and organizations that seek profits do so at a much higher cost than what it takes to make items these days and many items could be sold for a lot less to allow the people to have more freedom with their money. In the next lesson, St. John will discuss poverty and will outline its necessity for our souls. However, here he simply gives us the knowledge by which we are to flee from the love of money. St. John says, “Those who live in obedience are strangers to love of money. For where even the body has been given up, what is left to be one’s own? Only in one way can they do wrong, namely by being ready and quick to go from place to place. I have seen material possessions make monks patient to remain in one place. But I praise those who are pilgrims for the Lord.” If we have surrendered ourselves to obedience as I have discussed previously on this discussion of the Ladder, then we will have already surrendered ourselves to being guided by our spiritual father and the elders of the Church. In doing so, we empty ourselves of all desires. I would be amiss if I said that I had completely overcome this temptation as I myself love to spend and do things with my money that I earned in my job. I love new things, and I love being able to show the new things to my friends and family. Unfortunately, God has called us rather to use that money to help others. In one of my previous discussions I talked about Panayiotis who was helping spread the Gospel of Jesus Christ in Kenya by restoring churches there. That my friends is a reward that will be accounted to you for eternity, not whether you spent $6k on a new vacation to Disney World’s Starcruiser Hotel. God will allow you to hang your head in shame on the day of judgement for that one. May we spend our money wisely and spend more time in prayer not with our money.

Amen. 

The Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 15

 

Purity. We are always seeking purity. Whether that be gold, silver, diamonds or the like we love pure things. Unclean things are less desirable and people tend to shy away from them because they don’t want the connotations associated with them.  In the same way a Christian should not seek unclean things and only those things which are pure. St. Paul says, “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” (Philippians 4:8)  He tells us that we should dwell on the good things. The goodness of Christ, the mercy of God. These are the things which God wants for us and desires for us. We often times, don’t want to focus on the good we focus on the bad.  St. John echoing back to St. Paul says, “Purity means that we put on the angelic nature. Purity is the longed-for house of Christ and the earthly heaven of the heart. Purity is a supernatural denial of nature, which means that a mortal and corruptible body is rivalling the celestial spirits in a truly marvellous way.” He also says, “The beginning of purity is the refusal to have anything to do with bad thoughts and occasional dreamless emissions; the middle state of purity is natural movements due to excess of food, but without dreams and emissions; and the end of purity is the mortification of the body after previously mortifying bad thoughts.” Lastly, he says, “He who fights this adversary by bodily hardship and perspiration is like one who has tied his foe to a dry branch. But he who opposes him by temperance, sleeplessness and vigil is like one who puts a dog-collar on him. He who opposes him by humility, freedom from irritability and thirst is like one who has killed his enemy and hidden him in the sand. And by sand I mean humility, because it produces no fodder for the passions but is mere earth and ashes.” By being able to remove yourself from the vices of sin and death, one is able to achieve purity, not by the means of themselves but by the synergistic observance of salvation. With the help of God and the saints, we are able to overcome the world. There are many things that must be done to achieve purity. We might need to confess our sins, remove occult books from our home, pray more often, fast from foods. The world around us expects us to embrace the things in our lives that give us pleasure. Bad thoughts are like airplanes waiting to land, and we the air traffic controller need to decide whether we will accept those thoughts or another airport needs to be found by the plane.

It is not an easy task brothers and sisters, there are devils all around us that will make us question the sanity of God and the love he shows for us. For some it will be the desire to obtain beautiful things like new shoes and caps. For others it will be to have their plaudits read for all to see. We cannot in any way allow the devils to be able to grasp hold of us. Reminding ourselves daily of who we belong to, will grant us the desire to please God alone and to shun the world in entirety. When beginning to take the path of salvation we will struggle. St. John says, “With beginners falls usually occur by reason of luxury; with intermediates because of haughtiness as well as from the same cause which leads to the fall of beginners; and with those approaching perfection, solely from judging their neighbour.” He also says, “He who has resolved to contend with his flesh and conquer it himself struggles in vain. For unless the Lord destroys the house of the flesh and builds the house of the soul, the man who desires to destroy it has watched and fasted in vain.” Often times because of our history and our love for the Church we become prideful, boasting about the nature of our Church and proclaiming we are the true Church of Jesus Christ. All which is true. However, it is the way we approach the matter that leaves us without purity. We become haughty and prideful of being pure in our teachings and our lifestyles. We look down on the misguided and the misfortunate and thank ourselves that we are not like others. However, in this case we are no different than the Pharisee who pointed out the publican in the temple and thought less of him. Those of us who are beginners, seek luxury and ease rather than the fires of Mordor, if I may make a Lord of the Rings reference here. We desire the best food, the best clothes, the best house. In other words we display our pride in ways that are unbecoming of Christians. Those who have neared perfection however will judge their neighbors and still fall. St. John says, “The Lord, being incorruptible and incorporeal, rejoices in the purity and incorruptibility of our body. But nothing gives such joy to the demons, some say, as the stench of fornication, and no other passion so gladdens them as the defilement of the body.” Are we so deaf to the will of God that we would give victory to the demons so that they could gloat and satisfy their craving to rub it in God’s face? Most people are. Only those who have by their own struggles overcome the world and rendered the devil incapacitated from any hold over them are able to relieve themselves of this vice. None have achieved it save the saints who spent long hours in spiritual warfare on earth. Another quote that fits here by St. John is this, “He who sees that some passion is getting the better of him, should first of all take up arms against this passion, and moreover against this passion alone, especially if it is the domestic foe; be cause until this passion is destroyed, we shall not derive any profit from the conquest of other passions. When we have killed this Egyptian, we shall certainly see God in the bush of humility.”

Be on your guard then that you do not falter in your steps. Time will come when you must fight in the arena of the soul and delve into the depths of your being to slay the beast of death. When these times come, the world will try and destroy you. St. John says, “Let us listen again to another wile of our foes. Just as food bad for the body produces sickness after a time or some days, so this often happens in the case of actions which defile the soul. I have seen some give way to luxury and not at once feel the attacks of the enemy. I have seen others eat with women and converse with them and at the time have no bad thoughts whatsoever in their mind. They were thus deceived and encouraged to grow careless and to think that they were in peace and safety, and they suddenly suffered destruction in their cells. But what bodily and spiritual destruction comes to us when we are alone? He who is tempted knows. And he who is not tempted does not need to know. Being a soldier for Christ means we must be on watch 24/7.  We cannot afford to give into our passions even in sleep. For if we do, the consequences will be our immortal souls. Again St. John reminds of us this giving perhaps one of my favorite quotes, saying, “Some think that battles and emissions during sleep come only from food. But I have observed that people who are seriously ill and the strictest fasters are very prone to these pollutions. I once asked one of the most experienced and distinguished monks about this, and the blessed man explained it to me very clearly. ‘Emissions during sleep,’ said that ever-memorable man, ‘come from abundance of food and from a life of ease. They also come from contempt, when we pride ourselves that we have not been subject to these effluxes for a long time. And also they come from judging our neighbour. The last cases,’ he added, ‘can happen even to the sick.’ But perhaps all three can. But if anyone is unable to find any of these reasons in himself, then he is indeed blessed to be so free from passion. And if this happens to him, then it comes solely from the envy of the demons, and God allows it for a time in order that, after a sinless mishap, he may obtain the most sublime humility.  So with that said, let us not be complacent, let us not be satisfied with ourselves. There is always room for improvement and we will never be able to obtain everything. We are only given that what is vital for our salvation. We must protect it with all costs. We must be like St. John the Russian, like St. Ignatius of Antioch, and all the other great saints who have stood facing their persecutors and never recanted their faith. I leave you with this saying by St. John. He says, “Let us by every means in our power avoid either seeing or hearing of that fruit which we have vowed not to taste. For it is absurd to think ourselves stronger than the Prophet David—that is impossible.”

Let us then be steadfast never surrendering, and standing firm in God. Witnessing for God and being above reproach. When the time comes be pure of heart, pure of spirit and never ever give up.

Amen. 

Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 12

 

               Okay so we’ve reached rung twelve. We’ve been climbing steadily and reached the top of rung eleven and have conquered are talkativeness. One of the things about talkativeness is that it also encompasses lying. I mentioned lying in the last blog but didn’t go into too much detail as I was knew lying was the next part of the discussion. Lying is a sin. I am a liar. Many people are. We tell lies so that we can achieve greatness, to avoid trouble and so that we can get people to believe we are better than them. As such, we lie constantly so that we can create the image of ourselves we want to project. In the court of law, this is called perjury and one can serve jail time for lying. In the same sense, when we lie we condemn our souls to hell and this jail sentence is for all eternity. St. John says, “Let no one with right principles suppose that the sin of lying is a small matter, for the All-Holy Spirit pronounced the most awful sentence of all against it above all sins. If Thou wilt destroy all who tell lies, as David says to God, what will they suffer who stitch an oath on to a lie?” St. David the Prophet and King was a liar. He told a lie when he slept with Bathsheba, he couldn’t just handle it. He also became a murderer too, but that is an entirely different blog. Those that lie become the epitome of hypocrite and we must avoid it. I would not want to be a hypocrite at my judgment. I pray that God will keep the lies from my mouth.

               St. John says, “When the demons see that in the very beginning we intend to keep aloof from the witty lecture of a coarse leader, as from an infectious disease, then they try to catch us by two thoughts, suggesting to us: ‘Do not offend the story-teller,’ or: ‘Do not appear to love God more than they do.’ Be off! Do not dally, otherwise at the time of your prayer the jokes will recur to your mind. And not only run, but even piously disconcert the bad company by offering for their general attention the thought of death and judgment. For perhaps it is better for you to be sprinkled with a few drops of vainglory, if only you can become a channel of profit for many.”  Our lies make us aloof to the truth. Sometimes we lie, to avoid the truth. We see this in the above statement, and we see this in our world today. We tell lies like men can become women, women can become men, that its okay for the same sex to marry and for us to sleep with whoever and whenever we like. The world teaches us that lying makes things right and that when we lie enough it becomes the truth. People have even lied about the scriptures so as to deny things like the real presence of Eucharist, the prayers to the saints and role of bishops and priests in the church. People convince themselves through these lies that this is what God intends for us and that anything and everything is permissible. However, St. John turns this on its head and says, “He who has obtained the fear of the Lord has forsaken lying, having within himself an incorruptible judge—his own conscience.”  Our own conscience will not accept these lies. Those who live in lies will be tormented by their conscience daily. I myself when I have told lies will writhe in agony until I finally tell people the truth. Recently this was the case with a couple of issues I was having. Those issues led me to having some pretty bad mix-ups and I had to come clean to those I hurt. When it came to it, I felt better and was able to recover from the pain I had inflicted on myself. When we need to speak and answer for something it is always best to tell the truth. To end this paragraph, I would like to quote St. John again, saying, “He who gives way to lying does so under the pretext of care for others and often regards the destruction of his soul as an act of charity. The inventor of lies makes out that he is an imitator of Rahab, and says that by his own destruction he is effecting the salvation of others.”

               Perhaps the easiest chapter so far to comprehend, and certainly the easiest to explain. Lying overall effects all of us. We see this daily in the news and on social media. We even have a whole section dedicated to so called “fake news” that supposedly is created to dissuade people from believing the truth. Whatever you think on this, understand that lies are all around us. People are not always who they seem to be. We pray that in time people are drawn to repentance and that they come to the fullness of faith through the Orthodox Church. Until then, people will struggle up this rung of the ladder and will be cast down from it. Especially those in authority who have the responsibility of giving us the facts and often misguide the populace for their own cause. I pray for you all, as I hope you pray for me. May God bless you and keep you during this time.

               Amen.

The Ladder of Divine Ascent: Rung 11

 

The eleventh rung, that of talkativeness and silence is extremely important. We see a lot of talk today among people. Talk is more easily accessible than ever. We have Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, Truth, and other social media platforms where people can talk as much as they want all the time about things. We also see  through the use of the traditional media, like the news where people will watch for hours to hear the commentators give their opinions on a variety of topics that are happening in the world today. We see this with Rachel Maddow, Brett Baier and others discuss the news and their opinions twenty four hours a day, seven days a week. The amount of talking this world generates is certainly higher than in recent years. In fact we even have smartphones that allow us to communicate with people all over the globe at the touch of button or key. Certainly not all of this is bad, but most of it is. We can’t stop talking.  St. John says, “Talkativeness is the throne of vainglory on which it loves to show itself and make a display. Talkativeness is a sign of ignorance, a door to slander, a guide to jesting, a servant of falsehood, the ruin of compunction, a creator of despondency, a precursor of sleep, the dissipation of recollection, the abolition of watchfulness, the cooling of ardour, the darkening of prayer.”  It is a sign then, that we have not learned to pray. A sign in which we show our ignorance, especially discussing things we do not know about or have no business discussing. We serve falsehood, especially when using talking to lie and to cheat our way out of things. While I will not go into lying in this article, those who know the Ladder of St. John, know that the twelfth rung is on lying and curbing that. We create despondency in others with our words, we use it as jokes and humiliation towards other. We don’t even care about our own souls enough to watch our words. My mother often said, “Weigh your words before you speak.” We don’t even do that. What comes from our brains comes out of our mouths. In this regard I once heard that thoughts are like airplanes are brains the runway and we are the air traffic control. We decide which one lands and which ones do not. The same way with words. We must choose carefully what to say otherwise it will destroy us,

The opposite of talking is of course silence. There is no silence in the world today. As I said we can get news at hour of the day, and we hear cars and airplanes all day long. People have forgotten what it means to be still for a minute. We order “fast food,” we constantly are playing video games and we listen to podcasts. All of which creates distractions in our lives in which we do not have the ability to or the necessity to pray. We leave God on the back burner and forget that He too needs our time and our love. St. John retorts to all this saying, “Deliberate silence is the mother of prayer, a recall from captivity, preservation of fire, a supervisor of thoughts, a watch against enemies, a prison of mourning, a friend of tears, effective remembrance of death, a depicter of punishment, a meddler with judgment, an aid to anguish, an enemy of freedom of speech, a companion of quiet, an opponent of desire to teach, increase of knowledge, a creator of contemplation, unseen progress, secret ascent.”  One of the best examples of Christian witness, comes from Christ himself. The story of Jesus’ trial is one that resonates with me, and I love speaking on it. I may have used this example before but let us consider once again the fateful moments of Jesus’ trial. Jesus was brought before the Sanhedrin, those who had brought him there were expecting Jesus to defend himself as other humans would. They expected Jesus to curse and blaspheme God for what was wrought upon him, and yet through it all Jesus remained silent. He was silent in the Sanhedrin, he was silent before Pilate and Herod. He did not dare speak unless he meant what he said. Those who witnessed it tore their clothes and smacked him. Pilate could find no fault in him. Herod decided that it was a waste of his time, because Christ would not perform a sign. Jesus showed us how to remain silent when the time was not right to speak. If everyone practiced that then many problems in the world would be solved. St. John writes about this saying, “I once heard from someone who asked me about silence that talkativeness is in variably born of one of the following causes: either from a bad, lax environment and habit (for the tongue, said he, being a member of the body, like the rest of the members, requires the training of habit), or again, in the case of ascetics, garrulity comes especially from vainglory, and sometimes also from gluttony. That is why many who bridle the stomach by force afterwards easily check the tongue and its chatter.” We are in the spiritual classroom, or at least we should be. We should training ourselves to combat the enemy on a daily basis, and yet we spend our time frivolously talking about sports, the weather, new technology, cars and so on. We do not use our words to praise God, rather often times we use our words to tear down God.

While there is much more to be said, St. John does not write much on talking. Out of saying too much. He offers his advice and it is very straight to the point. Instead of leaving you with the closing remarks that St. John makes at the end of this rung, I will leave you with something else. This is from the chapter, though it precedes his closing remarks. He says, “He who is anxious about his departure, cuts down words; and he who has obtained spiritual mourning, shuns talkativeness like fire.” Do we shun talking? Do we shun our words in favor of listening and being with others and experiencing life. There is certainly too much talk in the world today. And I pray that we might learn from this and refrain from spending all our time talking and would rather spend it in silence with God.

Amen.